contrary

(UPDATE 2025-04-06: please note that I now find this post somewhat embarrassing, but not quite embarrassing enough to remove. this post describes feelings that are somewhat adjacent to ones I still have, but which I could probably describe much better.)

contary to apparently popular belief, I am not a "programmer". this labelling would imply that i am knowledgable about certain things, which I am not. I fear the scenario in which people talk to me, thinking I am a "programmer", and asking me certain questions which I cannot answer, resulting in the person being thoroughly disappointed and me being thoroughly embarrased by the exchange I just had.